I hate myself for being so stubborn as hell.

I hate myself for being annoyed at things I shouldn’t blame on others.

I hate myself for keeping anger bottled up inside.

I hate myself for releasing anger on people not related to my anger.

I hate myself for feeling insecure every single time.

I hate myself for not believing in myself.

I hate myself for being such a coward.

I hate myself for expecting too much.

I hate myself for being so irresponsible.

I hate myself. Period.

Everyone gets jealous at least once in their life.

Well, usually more than once. It’s quite inevitable, don’t you think?

We normally see our flaws and other people’s talents. In the end, we compare ourselves to them, one way or another.

I have to admit I’ve been quite acquainted with the green-eyed monster already to know how insecure I am about myself. No matter how many times I tell myself that I’m not as bad as I think, I still end up comparing myself to other people.

It’s become a habit. A bad one at that.

I see someone who I think is really talented and amazing and I admire him or her for a while but I sometimes wish I was that person with all those talents.

You’ve wish you were like the idol or hero you looked up on since you were a kid, don’t deny it. That idol might have been your older brother or sister and you just wished you could get out of his or her shadow and be on the limelight for once.

Jealousy is something that everyone feels. No surprise there.

People have insecurities.

Even those people you think are perfect have their own insecurities. The movie She’s Out of My League shows us that with the tagline, “How can a 10 go for a 5?”

So why am I here writing about something everyone must already know? Why bother add to the ever-growing size of the data on the World Wide Web?

Well, like I mentioned above, I can never get over not being jealous.

I’ve told myself loads of times (but apparently, not enough), that I too have many talents. I too am a pretty girl who is loved (not being vain here!).

But why is it that when I see someone who I think is prettier than I am, or someone who I think is more talented than I am, I feel a pang of pain in my chest.

Whenever I see a name, a photograph, a video, a drawing, a message, or whatever that is linked to someone I think is better than me, I can feel the green-eyed monster standing behind me, telling me “She’s better. She’s way prettier. She’s more talented. She’s more special than you will ever be.”

Whenever I feel that, I end up hating myself. I immediately try to erase that single moment when I caught a glimpse of something I didn’t want to see. But it won’t go away. It just lingers and tries to consume all your thoughts.

I hate myself for being jealous. I hate myself for being insecure. And I hate myself for allowing myself to be consumed by jealousy, time and time again.

I’d have to admit, I do rant.

I rant about lots of things. Friends, family, enemies, and situations that really make me want to kill someone. (I apologize for being so violent.)

But is it really helpful?

Sure you get the anger out, but is it really the right way to let your feelings out?

When we’re upset or mad at someone, shouldn’t we tell them? Talk things out?

If there’s something we don’t like about someone or some thing, shouldn’t we also voice it out in a non-violent way? (Ha, non-violent. And I wanted to kill people!)

Ranting can help, only temporarily.

Venting out your feelings onto writing is also helpful, in a way.

If you write it down on paper, you can let your anger flow to how hard you’re holding the pen (and maybe, eventually break it).

If you blog, well, that’s just a bit more public. Just be sure to leave names out if you don’t want them to accidentally read it.

But all these venting out will only help you release the anger. It doesn’t help you solve anything.

Best way to get over a fight or a misunderstanding - talk to the person.

Not rant to someone unrelated.

You can go to someone else for advice, but don’t say mean things about the person you’re mad at to someone else.

Talking is the best way to fix things.

Not talking will only make things worse.

But remember to say it nicely. Don’t yell. Be calm.

“Please don’t be mad. I have something to tell you.”

Be sincere. Be honest, though not too brutally honest.

Forgive. Smile. Stay friends. Be friends. Live happy.